Going well

     I am having a great week. Things are really starting to look up. First I found out that my surgery is almost approved. They only requested a letter from the surgeon that they should have already had. So, Tiffany, the lady that handles all of his stuff, sent it to them and is expecting approval this week!  So then, my boss seemed a little upset that is old be gone over the holidays. I agreed to talk to the surgeon's office and see how quickly we could get it done, realistically. She said that I have some pre-op appointments that I need to do. She usually doesn't give the info out prior to insurance approval but she went a head and gave them to me. So I am seeing a cardiologist on the 13th, a pulmonologist on the 15th, and having an upper GI on the 19th. Then all I have to do is lose this last few pounds and we can do it. So I started a flush and cleanse program and am avoiding all carbs like the plague! If everything goes right, I will be having my surgery in 3 weeks!
     Then there was a posting for an FA position in Gainesville which is only 30 min from my house. Well I didn't even consider applying because I am working so hard at Athens East and thought it would be wrong to apply for another position. But then, today, my boss called and said she wants me to apply. She says she can't hold me back just because she needs me. So I put in my applicant and we will see what happens. I expected to have my own clinic by this time next year, I had no idea I could be looking at the possibility already!
     So how about by this time next year I could be a whole new, healthy person and be working towards my next big promotion! Things are definitely looking up!

SBB 2012

So we went to Southern Beauties and Beaus nationals this weekend. It was interesting. My son was my pageant tech for the very first time. It went well. I think his male energy helped keep things balanced. Anyway, I spent too much money as usual but the girls had a great time. Teagan won queen. She did the best she has ever done on stage. All it took was a five dollar bribe. I promised her that if she would smile during all three events, beauty, Barbie, and pirate, that she would get to buy something off the vendor's table. She didn't drop her smile at all! Sage, on the other hand, had a hard time this weekend. She was the last girl in a group of 12. The more she watched the other girls, the more nervous she got. By the time she got n stage, she was too nervous to do well. She ended up as second alternate. Her coach says we need to practice more. We are going to step up our game between now and the next pageant and see what happens. But she has decided to quit doing pageants. She wants to show hogs. In order to buy a pig, we cannot buy a new dress. It is her choice and I will honor it. Bt I am sad about it. I love doing this with the girls.

Obesity help conference

So I am at my very first obesity help conference in Atlanta. Yes, I am obese...morbidly obese. I am five foot three and last weighed in at 272 pounds. I am not sure how I got this way exactly. I wasn't fat growing up, in fact, I was underweight a good share of my childhood. However, many years and four child births later, here I am. I wish I could blame someone else. My parents, my kids, my ex-husband . But alas, it is all on me. I just like to eat. So about a year ago I decided to have gastric bypass surgery. I went to a surgeon. They gave me a list of requirement to fulfill. I saw a dietitian,    a psychologist and I had to turn in a report from the doctor who had been prescribing my weight loss pills and visit my pop. Well guess what, the doctor had closed up shop and moved off, leaving me with no record of my weight loss attempts. So I had to start over. Now I have turned in all of my stuff, which still might not be right and am awaiting insurance approval. In the mean time I decided to come to this conference this weekend and learn all that I can about this surgery and life after. I am nervous because I am alone, didn't have anyone to bring with me. I am excited to learn what I can though and I am going to connect with others who can be a support to me along the way.  I have asked the Goddess to join me and guide me so that I can get the sits out of this conference. Now I just hope that I m successful .

So here it goes...

I have decided to start a blog. Some days I think my life is pretty interesting. Other times I think my life is boring. So I decided to let ther people decide whether or not my life is boring. So this is just an introduction. I am 35 years old. I am married. We have 5 children, ages; 4,6,11,13,15. My husband has two grown children he adopted from his first marriage, which gives us 4 grandchildren. They all live in New York and we live in Georgia. I am Wiccan, but no one else in my family is. I am a registered nurse and am currently working on my masters degree. I have a brother who lives in Michigan with his wife and six kids. We didn't grow up together so we are not close, but I love him. I have a half sister here in Georgia who hates me, but that's another story for another day. My most common saying is "it is what it is". I usually take things in stride. Not that things don't get me riled up sometimes, but to too often. I wanted to start blogging so that I have a place to vent on bad days, express myself on good days, and just share my journey with whoever may be interested. Blessed be!